May 25th, 2011 was the day I had my biggest “Aha-Moment” up to date. It was the day I decided to make a change in my life. I sat at home on my couch and watched as Oprah took to her stage for one last show. Her words moved me to tears – my eyes weren’t dry once during the hour-long finale.
“[A calling] lights you up and lets you know you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be, doing exactly what you’re supposed to be doing. Live from the heart of yourself. You have to know what sparks the light in you so you in your own way can illuminate the world.”
I have spent countless hours of my life wondering if there was any reason to strive for greatness. I never really thought I could make a difference or that anything I could do would mean anything. Oprah touched a part of my soul in her last show that I have been trying to find for years. Her words resonated through my television and she made me believe in myself.
It almost seems ridiculous to think that someone I’ve never met – someone who does not know me or my personal battles – could move me in such a way that faith in myself has been reinstated. I not only believe, but I now KNOW that I am destined for so much more than I give myself credit for. Thinking about how her show made me feel still makes me misty-eyed…
“There’s a difference between thinking you deserve to be happy and knowing that you are worthy of being happy. Your being alive makes worthiness your birthright. You alone are enough.”
I have hesitated for so long to put myself out there because I’ve felt like I don’t merit being able to do the things I love. There are so many talented people out there that I’ve felt like I would not compare, like I would never make it. I could not have been more wrong.
My heart is filled with hope and faith in myself – something I have not had for a long time – and I foresee a great future ahead of me.
Here’s to a future filled with excitement, wonder, hope and faith. Thank you Oprah for opening my eyes and making me realize that I am worth it.